PAPER SEEDS Seeds of ART and THOUGHT
Come on in... relax, kick off your shoes, and get cozy for a few minutes. I intend this space to be a happy and encouraging spot in your day where perhaps you'll sign off feeling better than you did when you signed on.
I have so much in life that I want to create, experience, and wrap my head around, and I bet you do too. I dedicate this space as a safe place to "grow" our seeds... Seeds of movement to increase our joy, inspiration, and insight - Seeds of change and evolution of our souls - Seeds of of celebration and creativity - a place where we thrive to live lives we're proud of.
How cool is it that we are given the opportunity to create a future that doesn't exist yet. That we have the choice in creating our lives and planting seeds that will grow into our dreams. I want to learn more everyday about how to do this in my life, and I would love for you to join me.
Friday, May 20, 2011
Loving Right Now - Happy Birthday to my Son
Our family is in Myrtle Beach, SC celebrating my son's eighth birthday. As I write this blog post, I'm taking in the view of the ocean as its waves lull me into a calm and peaceful place deep inside myself. Tomorrow is Ryan's birthday. Deep sigh... he is my baby.
The kids and I were livin' it up in the hot tub last night, and I happened upon an endearing moment. There was a mother and her one year old boy playing close to us. As I relaxed into the steaming hot water, I looked over and saw the mom holding her little boy, and I could literally feel their love connection... it was palpable and beautiful.
The smiling baby leaned into his mother's and bit her on her chin... gumming it, kind of biting and slobbering all over it, while the mom smiled and kissed him all over his face. Then the little boy just melted into her arms and they held each other for some of the sweetest seconds I've seen, all the while reveling in each others love.
Watching that connection flooded me with my own memory of that same exchange seven years ago between Ryan and I. As I looked across at Ryan, chilling out in the bubbling water, I noticed he saw the "biting chin love fest" too. I said quietly to him, "you know you used to bite my chin just like he did to his mommy."
He smiled, and we had a secret connection then, a knowing of sorts that the bond of a mother and her son is something special. He immediately swam over to me, got up on my lap, and softly bit my chin. Then we hugged. It was just an awesome, awesome moment.
My baby is growing up. I have revisited, briefly, the memories of his younger years, but I am not mourning them. Sometimes looking back on the memories is bitter sweet. So today, I am instead going to love him right in this moment. Those memories are so deeply rooted in my heart that nothing in this universe could take them from me. So, instead of going back, I am going to celebrate him... fully and grandly... appreciating all of him... every detail, right now.
Loving him right where he is in this moment - I'm celebrating who he is right now, today, because it is in this moment that I understand the full culmination of his life. I really see where he has been and who he is now.
Because it is in this moment that our point of power for loving and laughing and enjoying each other is creating more amazing manifestations yet to come. Not in the past. It is now, this very second. This awareness of loving in the now plants the seeds for thousands of new and wonderful encounters between us in the future. So today, right this very second, I'm loving...
the new freckles on his nose
the way he calls me "mah-jong"
how our feet touch when we sleep together in the hotel bed
his spiritual wisdom and intuitiveness
his cute little hiney. I just have to touch and pinch and kiss it!
his wide-open screams of joy and huge eyes
when he rides his boogie board on the ocean waves
his thankful heart
the way he saves his money for just the right purchase
his new love of sharks
his contentment to sit on the balcony by himself
and stare out at the ocean
how he wants to be a "hippy biker" when he grows up
(Bike week at Myrtle Beach.... what can I say?)
the way he spikes up his hair with gel
the way he sees right through me
the way he loves his life right here and right now
the way he loves me
and a million trillion more...
Just for this very minute, and the next, and the next, and the next, I'm loving him now.
Gotta go! I have a lot of celebrating to do!!!